I have made some great friends on this trip. I´ve learned so much about myself and the ways I am capable of interacting with people. I´ve made friends here that I hope I will keep for a long time which has been a pleasant surprise. At the same time, I very much miss my friends back home. Andrew, Shae, and Louise who have known me for 7 or 8 years now! I sometimes sit and think about all the changes I have gone through in the past few years and am completely amazed and grateful for the friends who have stood by and supported me through all of this.
I really miss sitting with Porter and Nitehawk and being allowed to just sit and be quiet if need be or laugh or be angry and all of that be okay. And really, I feel a little guilty about saying this, but I miss the kids most of all. I miss Rian wrapping her little arms around my neck for comfort and Iris telling me about all the new things in her life. My first couple of weeks in Spain I was dreaming about Rian almost every night. This is the longest I have been away from her since she was born and it is much harder than I anticipated.
So maybe I am finally feeling a little homesick. I miss the family and life I have built in Seattle but at the same time I am sad to know that the community we have built here in Spain will dissolve after we all go home. Well, I am relieved about some of it. Lots of mixed feelings, I guess.